Ever have those times when you just are so unsure of what God is doing? I find myself in that place once again. To be frank, I've been so apathetic in all of my relationships, and most especially with my relationship with the Lord. Quite honestly, I'm sick of it. I'm tired of being lukewarm, I look around at my heart and I just wish I could shake myself! I ask myself, "Where is the passion?" or "Where is the love?" and I answer myself with stammering and incomplete thoughts.
I think God has cast me into the throws of desolation to wake me up. If anything these past few months have showed me how weak and fragile I truly am. Yet, in my stubbornness and pride I refuse to be real and vulnerable with the One Who knows all of my weaknesses already. Where in the world does that make sense?
God, lead me. Please.
